Happy Birthday to my Mother

Dear Ma,

Happy 100th Birthday today which is relevant even though we had a funeral for you when you passed away at 60 years old for three main reasons. Firstly, you chose to accept the Gospel and to be baptized at your own will, so we share a common belief that Man(including woman) still lives on after death as a Spirit being until the resurrection. This is to take place during the prophesied end days of our world which seems closer today! Secondly, as space and time is still measured by Man on earth, it makes sense to me that you would be celebrating your 100th Birthday today as I'm still alive on earth following earth time now in Kuala Lumpur. Last but not least, today is a Thursday which I've designated to be my Deep Thinking day so I remember your birthday and like to share my heart with you and some thoughts. 

In August last year of 2020, I solved the mystery of where the black and white photo of you and I was taken at, who kept this photo since young till today. 

More details of the day trip to the island can be found in my Facebook post here.

The ability to unravel this mystery happened in the most unique time of my life and that is during the world COVID-19 pandemic that started in early 2020. Before going to Melaka, I went up to Penang to visit Moon Lean, my oldest sister.

I was visiting with my former mission companion David Soon whom you know. We were serving in Malaysia/Singapore in 1980-82 with a unique opportunity as pioneer missionaries who were able to visit our parents, now and then! 

It was through sister that I got to know my mystical cousin Ong Chin Hooi who has psychic powers who had passed away on 12 Nov 2019. Since young I had always heard about the mystical things that Penang island seem to possess but living in the modern city of Kuala Lumpur, I was too preoccupied with my life to find out more. In my latter years, I took time to discover and recall to create a special journal to cover this aspect of life found at Be More, Know How.

I know you are aware of these things, being born in Penang but following Pa with his well educated western background, I guess you are less exposed to the experiences as compared to oldest sister who lived there all her life since birth.

After Penang and then Melaka, I decided to go camping Aussie style with my Malaysian friend you've met in Geelong...
Remember your trip to visit me in Geelong during summer of 1978? Tong Leong my 'sifu' seated closest to the camera who taught me everything about outdoor life in Australia is seated closest to the camera. He had become a citizen of Australia and decided to go on a "Malaysia 2nd home" program where he could live in Malaysia with his family.
Standing 2nd from the right is his younger brother who was my outdoor buddy for bike riding, camping etc who is also from the same school together in St.John's. This pic was taken when I left for Australia for my tertiary education in Feb1977. I am always close with my friends and have a habit of organizing reunions in small numbers or large groups as shared in this journal.

As you are aware, the mother of our family Geok Lee or my wife passed away on 6 Nov 2012. I'm sure you would run into her somehow in the spirit world. I don't hear or receive vibes from you as much as from her until lately when during the pandemic, we all seem closer to the other side of the veil as we call it. From Geok Lee, the strongest connection was during the disappearance of the MH370 recorded here. 

Well from my side, you have six grand children and two great grand ones as of today! Under the Lord's guidance and the Spirit of Elijah, family history work and seeking our ancestors has made good progress. Today technology has definitely advanced greatly to make everything that was once impossible become amazingly possible as shared in my family journal here with Geok Lee.

At the last General Conference of the Church on 4th April 2021, which happens to be Geok Lee's birthday too, it was announced that a Temple of the Church will be built in Singapore! We used to have to take a plane to fly to a Temple of the Church to participate in temple ordinances but no longer once the temple is built in Singapore! In the temple, I always feel there is just a thin veil separating the living from the dead. Everyone in Singapore and Malaysia were overjoyed to hear the announcement.

I am grateful that without any persuasion from me when I came home from Australia to inform the family that I would be serving a voluntary 2 year mission for the Church, you choose to take discussions from the elderly couple missionaries to prepare to be baptized.

Love you very much Ma and happy to know we can all be together again one day with Geok Lee too.

God bless!

Boynie/Sun Fu/Dad the KL City Kid
Latest always at www.AbacusToCloud.com



2021 first Spiritlane post

In the year 2020, the church members world wide focused on the study of the Book of Mormon online. In 2021 the focus is on the study of the Doctrine of Covenants. Watch the video to learn why the study of the two books are important:

Rushing out to shop in the city on Sunday morning? What's happening Sun Fu Chong???

The answer is simply my excitement in life at this time of our world pandemic that allowed me to be lost in time where I could do more Thinking and some thing else that came to me as a personal revelation at the start of the new year of 2021, I was continuing to be Seeking as I've always been doing in my life time explained in a special Consciousness journal I created here. So the simple answer to my gross error was I was too busy engrossed in my seeking activities of my research and wasn't thinking about normal schedules of the week as the lockdown totally freed my mind from them! I actually experienced what my research was informing me. Quantum physics has shown that space and time are illusions of perception! (Note: Underlined words when clicked provides more meaning or elaboration)

I am blessed with verified knowledge & personal experience from the past and present. I am blessed with a vision of the future that is deemed spiritual, the S of BMS. B is body with feelings/emotions that assist with memory in the limbic lower area of the brain while M is for the Mind, the processor or creator of principles & systems found in the upper brain or cortex area or even outside the brain as per the phenomena taught by Descartes.

How one domain interacts with the other can only be fully known when Scientists and Spiritualists agree on what is the truth of Life or maybe simply answering the question, "Who Am I?" We are moving into the 2nd year of lockdown caused by the COVID-19 pandemic that is still not under control in Malaysia and many parts of the world. More people are accessing the internet in this era of time when physical activities of people interaction or travel has been very much restricted.

When there is less physical activities in my life, I tend to become more *intellectual and spiritual*. Allow me to briefly share some continued miracles in my life that occurred online and even offline just in the past week of this February month. My intense focus on unraveling the mystery of Human Consciousness led me to find a Dutch man named Michael Rogge through his website entitled, MAN and the unknown. He has produced over a thousand video clips shared in YouTube. Photos can be found in Flickr. More on this new special friend from Holland later.

Let me begin first on the series of things that were happening in this February month including finding this Dutchman... Well we have all heard of the term algorithms used in computers. With my research on human consciousness, I'm discovering they're talking today about algorithms in our brain in neuroscience too. The basic definition of an algorithm is simple: a step-by-step set of instructions for solving a problem or performing a task explained simply here. From this basic principle, it has led to amazing creations or inventions by Man for example in areas of our concern like healthcare.

In the month of Feb 2021 for the Chinese new year celebration of the Ox year, Malaysia was under the most extreme conditions of an emergency lockdown by the government. More time was spent indoors where I have noted earlier, from the past year experience, I become more intellectual and spiritual!

Example of the series of events how computer algorithm led me to interact with what I believe to be a set of algorithms in my brain follows: 

1) Some conversations on the net via WhatsApp on the passing of an old school teacher named Mrs Kang at 82 years of age led me to create a memorial post for her though she never taught me in my old school of St Johns but she was senior enough that most students knew who she was. The family had opted to have a private wake as well as burial since we were under emergency MCO where only family members could gather. Information was circulating in the various old school WhatsApp groups that enabled me to pick up sufficient content to complete the memorial post. I did find out that the family were using the funeral parlour near my home in KL but due to the family request that it should be attended by family members only where it was a time of SOP from the government with the emergency MCO in effect, I humbly complied.

2) I decided to visit the Kwong Tong cemetery nearby where they have the Pagoda columbarium where the ashes of my father and sister are kept. 

When I went home, something started happening to tell me it's occurring again. What is that one might ask? I could answer in two ways. One is that I'm living up to my Chinese given name, 山福 Sun Fu or Mountain of Luck. The other is I've broken the Enigma code where I actually watched a movie on this topic during the pandemic year of 2020 about Alan Turing! So I seem to be able to continue unraveling or solving puzzles of life that others can't seem to do it but I could.

Well personally, from living for so long and doing my best to record my life as one who was always Thinking a lot on my own since young to later go out to Seek for the answers, I consider myself really lucky to be endowed with both! What actually happened when while my mind was focused on this sister who died so young, a friend of hers from school who lived in the neighborhood when they were young and later met up again as adults in Australia later on in life, connected to me on Facebook out of the blue during the Chinese New Year celebration! A paranormal incident perhaps? If I had the time, I could add this to my Story of 7 journal where I have been too busy in life to update it with all my miracle stories when they happen!

I had the chance to ask her so many questions interacting with her online almost daily! She helped me fill in all the blanks I had when I tried so hard to help my father, who passed away first and then this youngest sister who had been living out on her own most times as an adult! She did go to Australia and met this old friend too for a couple of years before returning back to KL! I was in contact with my father all my adult married life and have this special journal to record my meeting with him a year before he passed away. I had bought an office on the same floor as his, after starting my own business that began with a small room at his office, so I was never far away over the years.

3) So this Chinese New Year of the Ox, was the first that I was really locked down on my own away from my family members outside Malaysia who were also locked down at the start of 2021. The pandemic in 2020 only started after the Chinese New Year and I had visits in KL from my oldest daughter and husband earlier from the US and then the four boys came up to visit me from Singapore later. My second daughter was expecting her second baby in a few months so we didn't expect her to travel that year. 

However, being the Chinese New Year celebration, I could still move around the city and was invited for dinner for the Eve as well as on the First day of Chinese New Year by close friends to help me feel the Chinese New Year spirit! With all the children outside Malaysia, we have always been getting together online for various celebrations or special occasions. Here is my journal post of how I traditionally ushered in the New Year of the OX, offline and online!

Now let me refer to the Dutchman mentioned above named Michael Rogge. I came across his website that got me excited as for the first time, after so many years, I found someone who was interested in sharing his online work on the same topic of Human Consciousness with the difference that he is 91 years old. This is over 30 years more experience in life than me. He has also traveled the world where he had filmed his travels of the past to convert them to YouTube, over a thousand two hundred of them!

I could even find a video of Kuala Lumpur he recorded in the year I was born! Isn't that cool? I have also embedded the video above, compliments of Michael Rogge, in my Independence Day journal post

Soon we began to exchange emails regularly where he responded well to my usually direct questions to him. I informed him that I did visit Rotterdam and Amsterdam in my early years where I could share this travel journal of mine with him. I had the good fortune to start travelling the world since I was 18 years of age and while he was using a movie camera in his travels, I didn't have that privilege in my younger days but I had the camera. To me these photos or videos(later life) capture the feelings embedded in my Consciousness that when I go through them years later, it augments my memory in life to link everything that happened to this current day to really be able to answer the question "Who am I" without the need for a third party to inform me or to start seeking for the answer in my advanced years!

Though I didn't get the opportunity of using imaging technology in my younger days, I'm most grateful today that in 1977, I opted to study computer science as a major in my business course in Australia. That allowed me to learn a technology that eventually revolutionized the world that I could share with my own family when I came of age to start my own IT and consulting business. It helped me achieve many breakthroughs when I chose to become an entrepreneur early in life. Today in my young sixties, I can connect with the world to learn and continue to share as much as I know or understand, organized by my own algorithm just as how Rogge is doing here using technology, amazingly in his nineties! 

To find Michael Rogge after so many years I know is not by chance as it was already in my algorithm sufficiently explained above. I have been reading his amazing writings on the topic of Consciousness of our mutual interest since the start of our Chinese New Year! I had let my algorithms do the work of first reading his voluminous subjects put together like a concise encyclopedia on Consciousness, from research and experience of his own! We started to also regularly write to each other where I'm the one asking him questions and he has responded well. 

There were the first two important questions I felt impressed to ask him that I felt if he were to inform me, I would be able to comprehend or get an idea of his Consciousness. First I asked if he was ever married and raised a family and second was whether he was spiritual or follows a religion. He answered negative on both to me and to be fair to him, I introduced myself as a family man and spiritual man who is a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. He did acknowledge that he did follow Theosophy until 1958. On further scanning the web I could learn that "The purpose of Theosophy and the aim of Theosophists is again to revive interest in these fundamental truths of religion which lie beneath the ritual and external forms, the picturesque and man-made garments with which they have been clothed." (Ref : From this reference, I can see that Theosophy isn't so much of a religion but an academic way of attempting to explain the many religions that are found in the world!)

I watched this video to have a clearer understanding of what Theosophy was about and yes it is an academic exercise to explain religion! He also mentioned his interest in the Indonesian practice of Subud latihan with an excerpt of his email as follows:

 "As my grandfather was minister in Surabaya end of 19th century and his sons were also staying in Indonesia I’m saturated with stories about life there. I’m also reading a lot of its past history. Chinese played an important part in its development. I helped introducing the Indonesian practice of the Subud latihan in the West in the fifties. One of the latest books I bought is on the phenomenon of stone ‘rains’ in Indonesia. There are a number of accounts of suddenly stones coming down indoors in houses from two meters’ height. Also Theosophy had its biggest lodge in Indonesia, with Chinese. Indonesian (president Sukarno) and Dutch members. I was myself a onetime member until 1958. "

It is interesting for me to read that the name "Subud" is an acronym that stands for three Javanese words, Susila Budhi Dharma, which are derived from the Sanskrit terms suśīla (good-tempered), buddhi, and dharma.

The meaning depends on the context in which they are being used. The original Sanskrit root words are defined differently than Pak Subuh indicates:


Suśīla: "well-disposed", "having an amiable disposition", "good-tempered".[4]
Buddhi: "intelligence, mind, reason".
Dharma: the Law that "upholds, supports or maintains the regulatory order of the universe".

Pak Subuh
Pak Subuh gives the following definitions:

Susila: the good character of man in accordance with the Will of Almighty God.
Budhi: the force of the inner self within man.
Dharma: surrender, trust and sincerity towards Almighty God.

It is interesting for me to read the above as years ago when I started my research in 2003, I derived my own 3 word definitions with some elaboration here.

Soon I was ready to use my technique of computer/brain algorithms mentioned above to analyze the Consciousness of Rogge in relationship to mine. These algorithms derived from computer science is equivalent to the brain science of psychology named as pattern recognition that I believe I am also using. In my life long learning habit, I came across something science is still discovering further in self-organization in the realm of molecular biology known as Biomimetics or Stigmergy explained in more depth here.  stigmergy 

With my pattern recognition connecting with algorithms on my computer that leads me to my own information database, plus my latest awareness of molecular biology, I could scan all the information Rogge has shared in his website here. He seemed to have similar interest with me for deep information where he has continued updating his site even in 2021 when he turns 92! 

I knew he had written a lot on Science and shared a lot of information on different religions. He particularly singled one he named as "Christian Myth" that shared the roots of 2 other major religions of the world which is Islam and Judaism. He also shared another page entitled, "On the psychology of Christian Movements" where he shared a 3rd party negative hypothesis of the founder of our Church named Joseph Smith. He was apologetic to me on email saying, "My apologies once more if I have offended your belief " and I wrote in my reply email, "I respond to you quickly to know that my Consciousness today is such that I can't be offended by anyone easily especially if it is about religion. Thank you again for sharing such straightforward and sincere answers or commentaries as that is optimal for me to learn from you, of your life as well as Holland that I just passed by in the winter of 1976 to know it was a most unusual country but never had the chance to return!"

From his response to my two questions above. his answer being that he was never married and neither did he follow any religion, it confirmed my feelings that he was an atheist or one who does not believe God exists.

After spending time scanning his volumes of scientific writings, reading in detail several of them,  I would like to share this link about a very smart Jewish woman named Rebecca Goldstein. She is a highly educated academician, born from a family of conservative Jews and became an accomplished author of non-fiction and fictional books. She became an interest to me due to my interaction with Rogge as both are very intellectual and seem to regard themselves as atheists. I've observed that the people of the western world who are more advanced in science and technology with their intellect somehow believe less that there is a God or spiritual beings compared to the Eastern world. A Jew can still believe in God and the Savior like this Jewish woman sharing on this video.

Having said that, it doesn't mean intellectuals do not believe in God. They may or may not. My research included finding a most unique information philosopher with his knowledge shared here. He also has one of his books in pdf version found here. He teaches that there was a creation phase but no creator. Now read this story of a cellular biologist who believes there is a God with his detailed explanation in a long pdf file found here. Latest science in a video of epigenetics explains greater understanding and limitations of the DNA. There was of course a rejection of the evolution theory by religious groups. In short, Rogge's position as an atheist from his point of view in light of the great controversy in the world whether there is a God who created the world or not is of no surprise.

I don't consider myself an intellectual in as much as I can read and figure out intellectual principles using my intuition or algorithm that I created myself and with sufficient repetition can even memorize them. As I was the youngest in my family with a large gap in age with my siblings to interact with, I had much time alone to be an introspective person. As I grew up and found similar age of friends at school to interact with, only then I felt more a complete or whole person! Little did I know that this interaction habit of mine with others some how increased my personal knowledge and capabilities acquired from other human beings.

I like to note that those who interacted with me could be positive agents for me and themselves. However, now and then there will be the negative agents who I believe due to lack of control of their own personal emotions chose to disrupt or challenge my peaceful life. I noticed that in the long run, they hurt or sabotage their own lives or relationships. Law of Karma seems true like truths taught in many religions of the world that I study and respect. Laws of the universe are after all definitely basically true and consistent with variations only due to the Consciousness of the master teaching them during the time of the world when they lived and the followers who may have slightly distorted or misinterpreted the original teachings if there was no systematic or technical way of preserving them.

It took many years later before I learned how to interact with the Spirit or non-visual personages. I also felt I could work or interact with gadgets, equipment etc. that are man-made including computers. I was just amazed how an ordinary person like me could do so many things successfully. I truly or am genuinely amazed of accomplishments, knowing fully my weaknesses of my Body and Mind!

It prompted me to have the desire to learn more to call it my life's personal research that could help others do the same. I know that is possible as all my life, I've been sharing and teaching others to perform and be better and they did! I know as I'm always connecting with them whether in person or online as another long time habit of mine. It led to findings I call the tri-partite nature of man due to my constant interaction activities in these 3 areas given Chinese sounding acronyms as follows:

First there is my Body (EQ) important for relationships or feelings

WEI is the acronym I use to represent my strength in "Western Eastern Interaction" relating to people of both worlds.

Second is my Mind (IQ) important for reasoning or logic

CHI is the acronym I use to represent my strength in "Computer Human Interaction" relating to algorithms

Third is my Spirit (SQ) important for faith or openness

SHI is the acronym I use to represent my strength in "Spirit Human Interaction" relating to divinity

I use the word 'interaction' as found in physics where the fundamental interactions, also known as fundamental forces, are the interactions that do not appear to be reducible to more basic interactions. There are four fundamental interactions known to exist: the gravitational and electromagnetic interactions, which produce significant long-range forces whose effects can be seen directly in everyday life, and the strong and weak interactions, which produce forces at minuscule, subatomic distances and govern nuclear interactions.

I acquired very good Western Eastern Interaction(WEI) experience, having been born in Malaya just after independence from the British to have travelled frequently between both worlds. With my Computer Human Interaction(CHI) skillset, I have been able to keep up with technology and the fast growing information that comes with it. Last but not least, I'm grateful for the wonderful years of Spirit Human Interaction(SHI) as a priesthood holder in my faith and my interaction with many people of different faith and religions, to appreciate more of what we have in common than our differences.

Click here or the photo above to see how my photo pattern figured things out!

17 Mar 2021
My Dream state and Interactions with Michael Rogge

A very unusual day indeed where after I share some brief content on this day, it needs to be continued in my Transpersonal Psychology website. It will be more appropriate to share my breakthrough experience of figuring out the algorithm or pattern recognition of the mind of this very intelligent Dutchman that has captured my attention since a few days before the Chinese New Year celebration.

I create this simple chart to help me be more aware of the time, event and our ages, his being more relevant, of our similar activities in life with relevant links given to his shared history online that I have read where possible.

My Age     Rogge's Age  My year/s  Rogge Year/s                Event 
13+                  41+              70s                 70s              Me - Karate, Roge - Taichi
19+                  57+             1977              1986                    Studied Computer
39+                  67+             1997              1996                         Used Internet
48+                  77+             2006              2006                        Used YouTube
61+                  91+             2021              2021                        First met online 

It was the Easter weekend and our Church General Conference would start on Saturday 3 April at 10am Utah time which would be 12am or 12midnight on Sunday 4 April in Malaysia and 6pm on Saturday 3 April in Amsterdam. I figured out this time zone differences for reason that I did send an email to Rogge informing him of the 10am Church conference session in Utah so that he could click the link that I sent to him if he was interested to watch, being the Easter weekend too.

4 April 2021
General Conference of the Church

My Happiest Day! A Temple of our Church has been announced to be built in Singapore!!! https://bit.ly/3mlKzSM

It's my happiest day not only because the Lord's temple is going to be so close for all of us living in Malaysia and Singapore, as announced by the Prophet in the above timed-video, but also Geok Lee's birthday is on 4 April. Whether she is alive or in the spirit world, she is still touching lives!

The blessing of having the General Conference during this pandemic Easter weekend  is we could get more people around the world to participate in the online conference. I was touched to hear and see the faithful saints from around the world, young and old, speaking or singing that brought tears to my eyes when I watched the above timed-videos!

26 Apr 2021
April 26-May 2 Doctrine and Covenants online lesson

Some time I wake up in the middle of the night with a dream that quickly disappears. I might want to pick up my phone to read our online weekly lessons if I can't go back to sleep immediately and I did exactly that to capture what exactly happened and what personal revelation I received as follows:

Extract from Revelation for the Church, Revelation for Our Lives
By President Russell M. Nelson, from April General Conference 2018 (Ref)

"Pray in the name of Jesus Christ about your concerns, your fears, your weaknesses—yes, the very longings of your heart. And then listen! Write the thoughts that come to your mind. Record your feelings and follow through with actions that you are prompted to take. As you repeat this process day after day, month after month, year after year, you will “grow into the principle of revelation.”9"

(Screen shot from my phone)

(Got out from bed to use my PC as there are more tools I can use to create this post to record what happened early Monday morning of 26 April 2021 at about 4am according to my computer screen shot)

It was exactly what I did since I joined the Church over 40 years ago to learn about writing paper journals that were converted online here under the Spiritlane name I had chosen to later in the year 2021 include all the other journals I had written over the years in a collective website in line with latest technology available at www.AbacustoCloud.com

As you repeat this process day after day, month after month, year after year, you will “grow into the principle of revelation." were the key words I read in bed on my phone to get up and update my latest journal online with my PC, to record my feelings and actions to follow. I am also reminded why I've been blessed for so many years for things I have acted out as recorded here.

It all started with just these two screen shots of what I read from my phone in bed early on Monday morning!

The schedule for reading the Come Follow Me lessons for the year 2021 is found here.

2020 first post

This first Spiritlane post in 2020 promises to be shorter in the number of words in a page by use of more hyperlinks, photos & videos when compared to previous posts of the past. The main reason for this change is that I need all the spare time to complete my first book to be available online as planned. I wrote to my late wife about it as mentioned here.

It will still maintain a long tradition of mine to share honestly feelings and thoughts of my heart and mind respectively. This is in line with the trend of the modern world of today that calls it transparency.

This post is timely as the General Conference of the Church is happening this weekend. 2020 is a significant year for the Church as it is the 200th anniversary of the founding of the Church by Joseph Smith, the Prophet of the Restoration. I feel the spirit very strongly to write this Spiritlane post at the end of the first quarter of the year 2020. Note that I am not an alarmist. My Consciousness is based on the tripartite nature of Man I have perceived had two of its parts rattled very quickly as we moved into the new year.

For the Body part, was the Corona Virus or COVID-19 pandemic that occurred and the Mind part was the sudden change of the politics or government in Malaysia. I was silent in my own written journals other than making a note or two to chronologically keep a record of the events. I felt that they were all already well covered by the press and the social media groups so that my further commentary or thoughts was not really necessary.

Before the sudden change of government in Malaysia and the outbreak of the COVID-19, late in the year 2019, I was preoccupied with the law and politics as well as living/health conditions applied to a community in the city of Kuala Lumpur, highlighted in a special website I created at www.BlueBoyMansion.com  Fortunately, many of the important and urgent matters were resolved before the local and international crisis began. I considered it the Lord's blessings as I was working round the clock tirelessly. I knew I had the Spirit with me in heart and mind to help solve different problems and challenges that arose as well as to give me the energy to move with swiftness.

When a "lockdown" was implemented on 18 March 2020 for two weeks and later extended to April 14, I made myself useful indoors, actively organizing things that were neglected in the past:

Much of the neglect to organize physical things was plainly due to the transformation of technology from the physical to the digital where most information could be kept in computer disks and today even in the cloud as the following photo depicts...

However, that is only a lame excuse as we have not become a paperless world yet so we need to continue to organize our papers, books and things that we or I use! As a metaphor, we are still physical beings who have not become back to a totally spirit form yet so matter still needs to be organized around us! To me I was a spiritual being born to have an earthly experience and I have learned so much.

On Sunday 29 March of 2020, the KL branch conducted its first Online Fast and Testimony meeting due to the "lockdown" where the Church instruction was for all members to stay home.

Isn't technology wonderful?

I felt inspired to share my personal testimony on Facebook for the first time giving a link to my testimony shared in my journal, the night before our online meeting.

On Monday 30th March 2020, exciting things were happening to me through the internet:

This video came to my attention online:

This is not an official presentation from the Church but shared by a member diligent in his studies of the scriptures and observant of the events that has been happening in the Church.

Watching it made me connect the dots to know why President Nelson has been acting rather boldly recently in his communication online.

Click the photo below to read his full message to us:

These words caught my attention :

The Second Coming

"The Lord will return to the land that He made holy by His mission there in mortality. In triumph, He will come again to Jerusalem. In royal robes of red to symbolize His blood, which oozed from every pore, He shall return to the Holy City (see Doctrine and Covenants 133:46–48). There and elsewhere, “the glory of the Lord shall be revealed, and all flesh shall see it together” (Isaiah 40:5; see also Doctrine and Covenants 101:23). His “name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace” (Isaiah 9:6).
He will govern from two world capitals: one in old Jerusalem (see Zechariah 14) and the other in the New Jerusalem “built upon the American continent” (Articles of Faith 1:10). From these centers He will direct the affairs of His Church and kingdom. Another temple will yet be built in Jerusalem. From that temple He shall reign forever as Lord of Lords. Water will issue from under the temple. Waters of the Dead Sea will be healed. (See Ezekiel 47:1–8.)"
On the eve of General Conference, I received an email from the Church screen captured below:

Wow, this is going to be an inspiring conference as remembered in my more detailed or wordy account shared just before the April 2018 General Conference found here.

Enjoy and I hope the sharing of my simple testimony of the Savior, that he lives and will come back to us again can inspire you to find eternal meaning and purpose in your life, even a greater knowledge of eternal truths. This General Conference will be broadcast live in a special way that we will not have the usual audience of max capacity of about 20,000 people in the conference hall as in previous years due to the lockdown. Click here to watch it or know the timing of when it will start. (Postdated comment: As this journal was written live as conference was proceeding, the link to watch the video was changed after the live conference ended to be viewed historically by clicking here instead.

Above text was typed before the start of the General Conference in the US date of April 4th,2020.

The writings below are made after the end of the Sunday morning session of April 5th US time:

In the April 2018 General Conference mentioned above with the link, I shared my experience of predicting a topic that would be covered before the conference itself by publishing my prediction on Facebook before watching the conference.

This time round, I had no intention to repeat the prediction feat again but nevertheless felt the impression that it would be something to do with the 2nd coming of the Savior. For some reason, I was reviewing videos on the First Vision by the Prophet Joseph Smith. I decided to share publicly in Facebook as comments in two posts that I made found below:

This video was shared in the comments section in Facebook post I dated Sat 4th April 2020 at 20:48

Screenshot of my post found in the comments section by clicking the above link "Facebook post 1" is seen below:

This video was shared in the comments section in Facebook post 2 dated Sun 5th April 2020 at 18:34

Screenshot of my post found in the comments section by clicking the above link "Facebook post 2" is seen below:

Both the local time and date of my two video posts in the comments section were before the start of the Sunday morning conference 10 am session as US time was behind our Malaysian time by 26 hours.

President Russell M. Nelson ended the Sunday Morning session of General Conference as the last speaker. Towards the end of his talk, he explained about proclamations issued by the Church in the past and announced that a 6th Proclamation of the Church was being released this General Conference entitled, "The Restoration of the Fullness of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. A Bicentennial Proclamation to the World" He then played a prerecorded video found below, to read the Proclamation. The session ended by inviting all members to participate in a worldwide solemn assembly and Hosanna Shout.

It was a nice coincidence that President Nelson specially read the new Proclamation in Palmyra shared through a prerecorded video during the conference when I was viewing other videos too of the First Vision in Palmyra.  

After the conference session ended, I found the proclamation document online here.

Postdated comments:

On the following weekend after Conference was Easter celebration and I made this comment on my Facebook page where I had shared about the Easter online celebration by our Church, "In my 7 year research on the deep topic of Human Consciousness, Caroline Myss whose book I read, "Anatomy of the Spirit', which shares her skill as a medical intuitive person in her life in this Easter Video seem to suggest she is awakening to understand the Savior and his purpose. Listen to her speak sincerely here https://bit.ly/34HsDcf"

Why I was inspired to share this comment is that most Western writers who are science based tend to write with a style of being politically correct to classify their context to be Spiritual in nature instead of mentioning the Savior's name.  I'm glad when I started writing this Spiritlane journal just over 40 years ago at this point in writing, I shared my testimony about Jesus Christ with an introduction found here.

How powerful and timely indeed that the bold proclamation document of the Church was released to the world! In my Familylane journal post, I also made a first post in 2020 announcing current and future additions to our family that can be read here.

Besides Caroline Myss, others I had covered in my research whom I was inspired to check out of their views during this pandemic of the world is Gary Gustav who created a long video with his wife Linda to present their views here. 

12 July 2020
Church talk for zoom meeting

Monday 17 Aug 2020
With partial MCO still in operations, I had time to view many relevant videos about our world pandemic to find this interesting video of one of our Apostles being interviewed online :

I was truly surprised that I could find an Apostle of our Church rambling in an interview to appreciate his shared experience on this season of COVID-19 pandemic that allowed us to have more personal time like I had to view more videos as depicted below:

So I didn't feel guilty to lay on my deck chair to watch more YouTube videos way past midnight but look at this video below I happened to come across!

Wow.. I was wondering is this my lucky streak or continued personal revelation I've been receiving all my life even without the need of COVID-19? The producer/owner of the video Jodi Stoddard had changed the authorization of sharing the video to only through the original YouTube video found here.

My OPT Optimal Performance & Thinking seem to be kicking in more in these humbling times! Optimal is the best one can achieve and it is not a state of perfection. There will always be the objective and subjective interaction or forces existing. Finding Jodi Stoddard video's is one thing but how about finding this book in my possession?

Wow I read it cover to cover at a greater speed of understanding than when I first read Isaiah's writings in the Bible and that found in the Book of Mormon! A desert patch after reading the greener pasture like words in 1st Nephi to suddenly being hit by Isaiah's teachings in 2nd Nephi! With Gileadi's book, everything became clearer to me. Watch the amazing videos for a wake up call found at Isaiah Institute's page here.

3 Sep 2020

It was announced at the end of August last month, as we celebrated Malaysia's 63rd Independence or Merdeka day recorded here in my journal, that the partial lockdown would continue to 31st Dec of this year. The continued lockdown conditions was not unexpected as world conditions of the pandemic has not improved or even worsened in advanced countries like the US.

I used the additional time of partial lockdown to spend quiet time researching on the internet as well as working on adding more content to my first book to be published. On this day I started early in the morning with an impression to search for some information that I had been looking for in a journal post written on a date over 41 years ago. Click here to go back to that journal post written in 1979 where I was overjoyed to be able to provide the missing information on this day. What a blessing and joy to accomplish something I've been trying to do for so many years!

31 Dec 2020

As a Man Thinketh by James Allen

The Spirit continues to guide me in all I do which requires me to often pray, ponder and think especially when I am trying to write my journals. It's the eve of the new year of 2021. I have always been more excited on the eve of each new year as Jan 1st of each new year seems a bigger event than another birthday of my life!

I didn't want to spend too much time writing on my journals as I wanted to focus more on my book writing process. I had therefore only created one spiritual post for the whole year of 2020 for all my spiritual experiences that are noteworthy to record as found above. On this anticipation of the new year, something made me focus on James Allen's book as I decided to polish up what others had presented on his book of 7 chapters that has become a world classic! I decided to craft my own version on a new journal and post that includes a voice option to hear the words of the book that I created here.

After finishing it, I read the 7 chapters several times and while resting during the day, I would listen to the recording and repeated it before going to bed where I could select which chapter I like to listen to, made possible in my new design of the online book. Completing the new online book within the day made me feel pleased of my technological skills working with computers and devices today. As I finished working on his online book, and thought about my own book, which would be a product of my 7 years of research on the subject of human consciousness, I was inspired to add on to what James Allen had done to inspire readers on how to succeed in life.

Why I felt that there can be more truths added that Man can further learn as James Allen's book was published in the early 20th century. I am writing my journal in the 21st century where so much has been discovered in the last hundred years to make the 21st century a technological and information world far different from the 20th century era, I therefore added another old theme, also recorded in ancient scripture, "As a Man Seeketh" in the same journal where I created a different presentation of James Allen's book but found in a different page here.

My Talk Assignment - Finding Peace by Forgiving others

Postdated Notes after the draft below was prepared for a talk that was assigned to me a week before 11 Aug 2019 to give to KL branch. Due to visits by General Authorities and other local authorities, the talk could be given only a month later on 8 Sep 2019.

I started the talk only roughly following the guideline of the introduction I had written below and used the scriptures I had prepared that relate to the topic. I was the 2nd and last speaker so I had more time to fill than the 10-12 minutes allocated to me as it was 35mins past the hour when I stood at the pulpit to look at the clock. The first speaker, 'Khei', was a female single adult newer to the church baptized on 26 Mar 2016 when I was the Branch Mission Leader. She was given the title Finding Peace through Jesus Christ. She did well and she finished her talk within the 10-12mins.

My introduction followed what was written earlier below and brought President Kimball's book to be a show and tell object.
I had planned to show the other book that impressed me very much also when I first joined the Church in 1979 which was Le Grand Richard's book, 'A Marvelous Work and a Wonder', who was an Apostle during the time of President Kimball. However, I informed the congregation that I had lost the book some years ago, probably loaned to someone else, so I brought another book out which was a Harry Potter's book to 'break the ice' that brought laughter from the listeners.

Now I know why I wanted to mention Le Grand Richards as he was a very powerful and convincing speaker, whose profession previously was a lawyer. His book was read by many missionaries, including myself, to give us ammunition in case any Christian pastor from another Church would negate our teachings or seek to challenge our doctrines in which I had already become well versed. Over the years, my knowledge of the Gospel had gone beyond what Le Grand Richard's book shared which was 1979 when I first read it. I could defend our teachings against any other religion should anyone choose to contend with me but I would usually avoid them as I know it would be a waste of time. In our modern-day, I could give them a reference to this journal that I wrote only many years later when I was helping another member to understand something that he wasn't clear about. 

Another reason why I would mention the name of Le Grand Richards was that this Apostle was known to stray from his prepared notes, even during the time when he would speak at General Conference time of the Church where they had teleprompters for speakers to read their prepared talk. Le Grand Richards would often time in the middle of his talk suddenly stray to talk impromptu, not following his pre-written text with the reason that he was following the inspiration of the Holy Ghost. This would drive the team of translators of different languages crazy. They thought they had his speech on their screens, that they could translate as he spoke following the teleprompter text to assist them in their live translation to others attending the conference or viewing live in other locations connected by satellite. However, it didn't turn out that way.  Now I'm not an Apostle but I knew I would stray from my notes too when inspired by the Holy Ghost!

So what happened was I did follow the introduction and read the important scriptures highting those from the Bible in Matthew was from the East as the Jews in Israel are geographically in the Middle East. What I quoted from Mosiah, which is from the Book of Mormon of the history of the Ancient Americas, is from what we call the Western continent. I expressed it in this way to highlight that the teachings were basically the same in the eastern or western part of the world.

Then I started straying from my prepared talk as I knew it wasn't enough to cover the extended time I had. I started emphasizing that there were two parts to the forgiveness principle of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Firstly the Savior truly suffered or paid for Man's sins through the act of Atonement, where he bled from every pore showing a great pain and suffering he had to go through to pay for Man's sins. So, therefore, we can find peace to know that we can receive forgiveness due to the sacrifice of the Savior for all of us. However, as read in the scriptures, we are also to forgive others for what they have done wrong to us.

This was when the Holy Ghost took over what I should say and I informed the congregation that I would be telling them in terms of some short stories of my life where I found that it takes a certain kind of spirit, mindset or even a Consciousness to know how to forgive another of their wrongdoings or sins against us. I made the comment that it seems easier for us to repent to ask for forgiveness from a God whom we know loves us. It seemed really harder for us to forgive another who has sinned against us which the law of God requires of us in order for us to receive forgiveness of our own sins.

I started the story of remembering I had come to Church late one Sunday for sacrament meeting and our District President Tolman was speaking. I sat outside at the couch near the door to be able to listen to the emphasis he was sharing to say the words, "I am sorry" often to his wife. It was funny as he kept repeating those words "I am sorry" emphasizing to the congregation that he would always say it to his own wife very often and encouraged the married man in the congregation to do likewise.

So with his story in my mind, I shared an experience one day when I was driving our oldest son, with me wife, to his friends home for a party where he had a map on a piece of paper drawn by his parents. Our youngest son was with us too, following a decision we made that after dropping the oldest, the three of us would go for dinner together on that Saturday evening. I was driving and it was an unfamiliar area for us and I couldn't follow the map either. I was making wrong turns and was covering the same area several times but still couldn't find the home. It had gotten dark too.

My wife eventually took the map and guided me to eventually find the home with a few more rounds. Now I realized why I couldn't find it as I was following a road that was straight but the map had the straight road with a kink in the middle that was not exactly straight like in the map that caused me to be disorientated. After dropping our son, I logically explained to my wife that the map was drawn wrongly or inaccurately but my wife insisted it was correct. So the exchange of words as to who was right and wrong carried on in the journey toward the eating place we had planned.

I described vividly to the congregation in my talk that our youngest son sitting behind in the middle, close to us, had felt the tension in the air but was acting very cool as if there was no argument going on between us. He was doing his best to change the topic of our heated discussion. My mind was very aware of this. Finally, when we reached the destination for dinner and I parked the car, I told the congregation that I immediately went to the other side of the car to open the door for my wife. I then held her hand firmly as she came out, to cross the street together, with my son holding my other hand. I simply told her "Let's have a good dinner" and leave the argument behind us!  My comment to the congregation was that we can immediately stop an ongoing disagreement that was going nowhere by just making a decision that we will move forward and forget whatever difference we were arguing about as it was not really important. This is a habit or a quick decision of the mind to move forward and not dwell to bring peace back immediately and we did have an enjoyable evening on that Saturday night!

Then I was impressed to share my next story which was also about my wife and I. The inspiration must be to touch upon the relationship between husbands and wives. This has become quite a challenge in our modern world today when marriages are taking a toll with a high rate of divorces. (Post talk inspiration: I found this link to a talk by Le Grand Richards that I have filed in my confidential consciousness/memory system online but had forgotten about it until writing this journal.)

So I related the story of a miraculous experience my wife and I had when President Hinckley came to visit Singapore in January 2000 shared in this link to another journal post of mine.
I related the story that at that time of the visit, my wife and I were having some differences and click the link given to know what happened and it's significance.

This photo above is shared here as part of my 'postdated notes' about my talk after it was delivered. As I was leaving the sacrament hall, she came up to me to share what happened to her when she heard me talk about the gush of wind or something occurrence that came to me during President Hinckley's visit to Singapore. (click the previous link for details) She simply told me the hair on her arm stood up. As I talked to her more and her 2 daughters, I discovered her husband had also passed away some years ago due to cancer

I continued my storytelling, learned from my wife, who became a recognized storyteller while in Singapore during her 7 years fight against cancer since she was diagnosed in 2005. She won a top prize in a storytelling contest in Singapore. I continued my stories to share my personal experiences with my wife about her last days at the hospital of the miracle experiencing a ray of sunshine coming down upon us at the hospital corridor as we expressed love for each other recorded in this link.

As I found that I had more time to continue speaking when looking at the clock, I was impressed to share some stories outside of a husband/wife relationship to mention the following true stories in brief, with lessons that I was tested to have a forgiving heart towards third parties who may have done something that would hurt me emotionally and even financially. They have become great lessons of my life's experiences to remind me of the truthfulness of the title of my talk assignment.

The first was the only emotional experience that troubled me in all my years of service given voluntarily to our Church, where a humble prayer to my Heavenly Father calmed me down totally. A new convert to the Church suddenly took a position against my leadership in the Church by spreading rumors to members in my branch of false things I had done to him. He was new but most of the members were not. They knew me well since I served as a missionary in 1980 to later marry and start a family of my own living in the same KL branch.(Video story)  A few came forward to inform me what was happening and assured me that they knew what he had said was not true.

It was the first time to face such a personal attack from a member of the Church so I was emotionally affected as I was always kind to him and helped him as a new member in many ways. I knew I had to pray to my Heavenly Father and my prayer was very quickly answered after I thumbed open the scriptures to find a verse from our Book of Mormon shared at the bottom of this journal as I added it as a postdated note to remind me of the exact scripture revealed to me. You can scroll down to the bottom or click this link to bring you to the bottom of this journal instantly.

Well, one can be hurt emotionally but it was also my lot to have been hurt even financially by a trusted person misappropriating my funds. I only mentioned this one experience of mine briefly but not about another who subtly misused the trust that my millionaire friend had in me by borrowing a large sum of money from him with no firm security that he could provide, except that he was my good and trusted friend. When it was time to repay, and my millionaire friend was kind and patient not to assert any pressure, but the one in debt wouldn't even communicate with me or my friend!

In these situations, I think Heavenly Father must be testing me to see how I would respond to these acts of selfishness which even criminal in nature. I expressed to the congregation that it was indeed a real challenge for me not to think evil of the guilty party or avoid feelings to seek revenge. I had to make sure bad thoughts would never fill my mind towards those who acted to hurt me for whatever reason.

I silently thank them for making my life more difficult so that I could develop greater resilience and even creativity towards overcoming all kinds of adversity in my life. It did make my life tougher but the Lord knew I was a capable person to handle any situation. I have always believed that 'when the going gets tough, the tough gets going.' I felt the fear of financial failure or humiliation was the temptation that the guilty parties received from no one else but the same devil who would tempt every man to do anything evil instead of good.

Time was running out when I just shared a few stories mentioned above in brief but not my after talk commentaries in this journal which I am concluding. I closed by talking about Le Grand Richards that I was aware in a talk by President Kimball from memory that as he had a habit of talking beyond the time limit, President Kimball would use his walking stick to touch his legs as a reminder to end soon. I looked back at the Branch President as I mentioned this so that he would be aware that I was finishing which I did with a closing testimony of the Savior and his Church today.

As an after note, I regretted not to share the hilarious part of the story of Le Grand Richards and President Kimballs. When Le Grand Richards was asked by the prophet why didn't he follow his already written talk, he replied that he was inspired by the Holy Ghost. The prophet then reminded Le Grand Richards that he should ask for the inspiration of the Holy Ghost at the time when he was writing his talk!

How could I do all that I've done shared above or achieved much in the temporal world of life though I know I'm not a perfect person in any way? I know the answer because I wrote a detailed account of my life for the past 40 years since I was accepted the Lord Jesus Christ by being baptized on 29 July 1979. The account starts here.

To be continued...

Post-dated Event:
Past midnight on 30 Sep 2019

I type a note "to be continued..." above whenever I cannot finish a journal post especially when my life gets busy, as it always usually is, to be continued later. At this time of my life, my heart and mind are fully preoccupied with many ongoing spiritual experiences and pre-occupation with completing my first book to be published as well as a major transformation project I started in Kuala Lumpur.

Suddenly I found the perfect ending in an unexpected email from our Church Area Seventy, Elder Lai from Singapore with a transcript that contains an account of her experience at the time of the visit of President Hinckley to Singapore. I had shared it in my talk mentioned above and found in the transcript below:

Stephen C. K. Lai

AttachmentsSep 29, 2019, 6:26 PM (7 hours ago)
to meFeiSueHanShuanErnRay
Dear Sun Fu, Fei, Sue, Han, Shuan, Ern and Ray,

Attached herewith is a transcript of your mom being interviewed by Brother Mel Thatcher back in November 2001.  Brother Thatcher was the first Church and family history consultant sent from Church Headquarters to SG to help the Singapore members to trace their roots around 1978.  Geok Lee and I worked for Brother Thatcher on a very short job contract in November 1979. I worked for him for a month before leaving for BYUH toward the end of December while Geok Lee worked till end December.  We were collecting data at the various Chinese clans as to how many genealogical records did they have (such as the number of books, dates from when to when, etc).  As you know, your mom did not come from a rich family.  And she was very hardworking to ensure that she would not be a financial burden to her family.  At the time, Roy was already at BYUH.

How did I obtain the transcript?  About 3 months ago, someone from the Church History Department wrote to me to inquire something from me.  I then asked if he knew Brother Thatcher.  He said yes, and I was given his contact information.  I then corresponded with Brother Thatcher, and told him about the Church 50th anniversary in SG.  He then mentioned about having an interview with Geok Lee which is now being archived in the Church History Library.  He asked me to write in to get a copy of the transcript as it may have something related to the Singapore Church history.  It took me a while before they released the transcript to me.

I hope each of you will appreciate Geok Lee more than ever before.  I also hope that her resoluteness in obeying God’s commandments, come what may, will be rooted deep inside you.  And it will motivate you to remain faithful on the Lord’s covenant path.  God bless you all.


EDITED TRANSCRIPT: (Errors to continue to corrected by blog owner. Original unedited transcript is found here.)


Background                                                                           Page 1
Life growing up and education
Introduction to the LDS Church Baptism, 1977

The Church                                                                           Page 4
Callings in the Church
Meeting her husband
Marriage in the Bukit Timah chapel, 1982
Sealing in the Salt Lake Temple, 1983
Living in the Clementi Branch

Family                                                                                    Page 7
Living with her in-laws after her husband’s car accident
Trying to share the gospel with her in-laws
Her father’s death
Furthering her education

The Church Continued                                                        Page 10

Leading the choir when Gordon B. Hinckley came to Singapore
Special experience with Gordon B. Hinckley
Her mother’s death
Closing remarks


INTERVIEWEE: Thong Geok Lee Chong
INTERVIEWER: Melvin P. Thatcher
LOCATION: Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
DATE: 2 November 2001

T: I’m in Kuala Lumpur. My name is Mel Thatcher, and I’m representing the Family and
Church History Department. I’m now going to interview Sister Chong Thong Geok Lee Nepang. Sister Geok Lee, could you share with us something about your personal background, your family, growing up, how you came to join the Church, why you joined the Church, who is your husband, how did you meet him, who are your children, what callings have you had in the Church, and what experiences are noteworthy to you? So please go ahead.

L: Okay. Thank you Brother Thatcher. My Mandarin name is Chong Thong Lee. Chong is
my father’s surname. I was born in Singapore in the year 1962, 4th of April. The place where I was born is now rebuilt into private housing area near Stevens Road in Singapore behind the country club. I cannot remember the country club name, but it is near Stevens Road. Their old name was called Kampong _______ which means a beautiful kampong, or beautiful village—in a wooden house that my mother managed to build together with a few other women from that kampong. In those days, you can just cordon off a piece of land even though it was illegal. But they were poor, so what they could do was just cordon off a piece of land, and they hired some carpenters to build a wooden shed.

Four families lived in the wooden long house that was divided into four sections. I was there only for less than three years when my father bought a housing development, bought—what do you call that?—apartment or flat. We call it flat in Singapore, and it’s in Queenstown, Commonwealth Drive, block 95, and the unit number is 778. That unit still stands and is still there. My mom had passed away last year, and she was the last person living there, but now the place is vacant.

Anyway, I basically grew up in that flat, and it was situated on the ground floor. So even though it was a housing development board—in short HDV—I lived there like a girl who lived in a kampong. I would play in the grass. I would climb trees. I would run around and play—sand play we call catching. Catching is like tag in America. It was a lot of fun

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having a lot of neighbors. There were 100 units in that single block. So I had a lot of friends who were around my age.

The language we used in those days conversing each other was Hainanese from the Hainanesefamily. If not Hainanese, we would talk to each other in Hokkien, which is the very common dialect being used in Singapore.

I remember there was this big tree near the playground, and under that big tree they put two swings. They build two swings on metal frame, and those are very sturdy swings. They stood there until, I think, three or four years ago when they finally knocked down that structure. So I used to go home and swing on that swing of my childhood under that big tree. I think I was very close to nature, and I still love nature. I grew up as an ordinary girl.

I think I was unique in the sense that my mother looked like my grandmother. Because I was the last of seven children, by the time my mother gave birth to me, she was forty- seven years old. So she could very well be my grandmother. I remember when I went to school, if my mom had to come and pick me up or to meet my teachers, my friends would say, “Why did your grandmother come instead of your mother?” [laughs] Yes.

From my background, my parents didn’t have a lot, but I was not poor in the sense that all the suffering were by that time alleviated because my brothers were all working. Between myself and my brother Roy Tong, there was seven years’ gap. So by the time I went to school, a lot of them are already working. So even though I didn’t have a lot of things like luxury, but I was never hungry. I always have clothes. We only buy one piece of new clothes a year, which is during Chinese New Year. One pair of new shoes, and that’s about it. I went to school in [Farrer Park?] Primary School. Today the building is still there, but the name of the school has changed to, I think, Nanyang Primary School. It’s still along Farrer Road.

I picked up Mandarin and English in school, in the Singapore education system, but my daily conversation with my parents were in Highlandese. I had a very good English teacher, [Mrs. Rachu?]. She taught English quite effectively, and I was able to pick up that language quite well. With good results, I was able to end up in a pretty good secondary school. In Singapore, the education system is very competitive. Is very result exam oriented; if you make your grade, you get to choose what good school you want to be in. And I manage to go to _______, which is Chinese Middle School.

Now the building is there, but it’s being used as ministry of education kind of thing. I don’t know whether now they demolish it or it’s still there. It’s along Margaret Drive in Queenstown. I spent four years there. After six years of Farrer Primary School, I spent four years in _______, and then from there I went to Hwa Chong Junior College. Now on the third year of my secondary school, which means I was in sect three—we call it sect three—I was fifteen years old.

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I think my parents had a lot of concern for me, which I didn’t realize they were having. My dad felt that I was quite a rebellious girl. A lot of time I think my way, but I always view myself as a good girl because I never did anything that was disastrous. I always had high value. I believe in honesty. I work hard in school. I was school prefect. I was active in the drama club. I loved to do Chinese dance. I loved to sing. I could play the recorder pretty well. So, basically, I enjoyed music.

In the year 1977, when I was fifteen, I think my father called up my brother Roy Tong, who was at that time a missionary—he was on the last few months of his mission. When Roy joined the Church as a young teenager, he had long hair, and he played the guitar. To my father, he had a bleak future. But after he joined the Church, there was some very positive changes that happened to him. After he finished his army, he served a mission.

Towards the end of the mission, my father called him and asked him to bring me to church. This I didn’t know. It was revealed to me only like in the year 1992. You know, I was thirty years old, and my father told me what actually transpired. So he told me that he asked my brother to bring me to church, and I had my discussions with the first two sister missionaries, Sister Joyce Quick and Sister Cynthia Fum. They taught me the discussions, and I was challenged to be baptized.

Even before I was baptized, I was very actively singing in the choir. I think my mentor, Sister Doreen [Poh Choo Hong] Lim and Jon [Sunhock] Lim, they helped me have better understanding of music. We had even classes for music theory for free. We had to fork out our own money for exams. I passed a couple of exams and had certificates for music theory through Jon and Doreen.

Anyway, I thought I was not going to get baptized because I was not a good enough person, but the missionaries told me you don’t have to be perfect to be baptized. They gave me the form to ask me to have permission from my father. I went home. I was surprised that my father signed the form without any objection. [laughter] Yes. So anyway, I got baptized into the Church on the 6th of August 1977. It was a Saturday. On the day of my baptism, it was drizzling, but the Spirit was strong when I was baptized. When I came out of the water of the baptism, I really felt good. My brother Roy Tong baptized me.

Being the first Saturday of the month, they usually have the confirmation on the next Sunday. That was the practice in those years. So I had my gift of the Holy Ghost on Sunday morning. I remember my brother gave me a special blessing. He said that the Holy Ghost will help me study well for my coming major exams, which was going to be in 1978—the GCE [General Certificate of Education] O level exam, the British kind of exam.

Anyway, after I was baptized, I became quite active. Actually, I have remained active all these years. I never quit going to church. One thing that helped me a lot in my English was I joined the seminary. We had home study program where we just meet once a week for two hours on Saturday. I remember the first few weeks was such a struggle for me

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because every paragraph I had about twenty new words I had to look up in my dictionary. We had those booklets that we had to study on top of the scriptures that we had to study. So it was a struggle, but I managed.

I was very fortunate to have Brother Dale Cox as our seminary teacher at one time. He was able to write in Chinese even though he didn’t really speak Mandarin; he spoke Cantonese. He served a mission in Hong Kong. So after he finished his mission, he came to Singapore to join his parents, President [Soren F.] and Sister [Fern M.] Cox, I think— if I’m not wrong. Yes. So he was teaching us, and he would write comments in the booklets in Chinese, which was really encouraging for me.

I continued to be active, and I continued to serve in the Church. My first calling was junior Sunday School chorister. They had junior Sunday School in those days for Primary children on Sunday. I was very diligent because a lot of the songs that the children sang were completely new to me. We had the pianist Brother _______. He was a very diligent man. He used to practice piano at church, and I would arrange for him to meet me at church so that he could teach me how to sing those songs and lead the song in the junior Sunday School. [laughs] That was when I really took off on music. I really enjoyed choir; I enjoyed teaching the children the songs.

By then, I should be like seventeen. I joined the Church when I was fifteen. I was seventeen, and then I was eighteen. I finished my junior college at the age of eighteen, and I came out to work hoping to save enough money to go overseas to do my architecture degree. I always wanted to be an architect. But, unfortunately, I didn’t manage to get into the National University of Singapore in the school of architecture. They put me into social science, and without proper counsel, I gave up that opportunity. It was either a blessing in disguise or whatever. We couldn’t tell today because, if I had gone to university then, maybe I wouldn’t have gotten married when I was only twenty years old. I would be still in the university.

But anyway, the couple of years that I worked, I worked as draftsman in two different companies. The first one was a Swiss company, Luwa Engineering. The office was in a prestigious Shaw Centre in Scotts Road, at the juncture between Scotts Road and Orchard Road, next to the Lido Cima. I remember working there for a few months. I was able to see the building of the current Marriott hotel—formerly it was called the Thames. It was quite interesting to see how they built the thing up, you know. There was the crowning part of the building structure was the roof. It looked like a Mandarin or Chinese pagoda. So it was something interesting here. That environment was not entirely good because the few colleagues that I have, they were not using clean language. It was my first time being exposed to an environment where there was a lot of foul language, and I couldn’t take it. I was looking for another place to go.

At that time, my branch president was [Brother Tong E. Boy?]. He was working for another engineering company in Jurong. He helped me get a job because, at that time, they needed a full-time adjustment in his office. So I managed to get a job and start

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working there and remained there for over a year. From nineteen I worked to twenty. [laughs]

Yes, I have to backtrack a little bit to the year maybe when I was eighteen years old. I met a young man at a district conference in the month of either April or May in the year 1980. His name is Chong Sung Fu. That was the first time we met, but I just thought he had been awfully familiar face, and I asked him where he’s from. He told me that he was from Kuala Lumpur and he had been living in Australia for the past three years and studying in Deakin University in Melbourne. But I thought that I couldn’t have met him then.

That was the first time we met, and we never really further our friendship or acquaintance until two years later in the month of June 1982. Out of the blue, he gave me a phone call. He told me that he had finished his mission, and he was going to visit somebody’s house. It was Jon Lim’s house. Jon Lim had just finished building his famous house, which is quite the talk of town among the Church members. He wanted to see that house. I think it was just an excuse; he wanted to take me out. But he told me he didn’t know how to get there. I spent about forty-five minutes on the phone trying to explain to him how to get there, and finally, I gave up. I said, “Okay. If you really don’t know how to get there, this Saturday I’m free. I’ll take you there.” That began our courtship.

We like each other, I think, very much. [laughs] In a couple of months, in August 6th of that year, we were engaged. We were planning to be married in the year after, which was supposedly 1983. We were planning to be married when I am twenty-one. So I was at that time twenty years old. There was a twist of event in October of that year, 1982. On the 22nd, Sung Fu’s mother passed away. So in Chinese custom, if there’s a death in the family, you would have to have something good, like a wedding, within 100 days. If you do not have that wedding within 100 days, you have to wait three years. So both his family and my family felt that we should be married within the 100 days. Otherwise, we have to wait three years.

So three years is a long time when we are 250 miles apart. So we had decided to follow what my parents and his side of the family said, that we would be married. So officially we were registered on the 22nd of December, but we had our wedding on the 15th of January in Singapore at the Bukit Timah chapel. For us, we considered the 22nd of December as our wedding anniversary because one year later we were sealed in the Salt Lake Temple on the 22nd of December 1983. We were registered in 1982, December 22nd, and we went to the temple a year later. It took us a year because they had those regulations that if you don’t go to the temple within like three weeks or three months—I can’t remember—you just have to wait one year. So we did that.

I think for the part that I got married so young, I think I was very in love. Today I think back about what I have done. I think I was really in love beyond reason; I just left my job, left my family, left my friends, left everything behind in Singapore and came to Kuala Lumpur. I was in for loneliness. It was very difficult at least six months to a year to

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adjust because, first of all, you’re got to adjust to married life. Second of all, I had no friends except for the friends that I had in the Church in Kuala Lumpur. Before I left, I was also taking institute because I had graduated from seminary. When we came here, there was some kind of combination of seminary and institute being taught by the missionary couple.

The Church in Kuala Lumpur, at that time, was very small. We had a branch of, like, maybe fifty members. You know the attendance is about thirty to forty, and the majority was expatriates. I remember that before I left for Kuala Lumpur, the Singapore Branch, which I belonged to, was divided into Singapore and Clementi Branch. So I was in the Clementi Branch. Being divided, each person had to take multiple callings. At that time, I was the first counselor in the Primary and I had to teach nursery and sometimes, if the teacher didn’t show up, I had to also teach other classes combined. So it was quite a challenging calling.

I enjoyed working with Sister [Lee Sol?]; she was very patient, and she was able to teach me a lot of things. Then when I came to KL [Kuala Lumpur], it was like the first time that I attended Relief Society because, when you are serving in the Primary, you just don’t have a chance to attend Relief Society. So my Relief Society experience are basically from KL, Kuala Lumpur. I had served in several callings as counselor in the Primary: as the president in the Primary, as counselor in the Relief Society, teacher in the Relief Society, and also as the president in the Relief Society. I was also at one time the Young Women president. My current calling is first counselor in the Relief Society.

So I have lived here in Kuala Lumpur from 1983 until today. That is like more than eighteen years. I see Kuala Lumpur grow as a city, and I think I’m quite blessed because a lot of positive changes have been made to Kuala Lumpur, even though in comparison to Singapore, it’s lagging behind. Yet it is not—what do you call it?—it is not outdated. Things are still progressing. I think I have respect for Dr. Mahathir [bin] Mohamad, who is the prime minister of Malaysia, for his leadership and his visionary leadership, actually. He has great vision for the country. It’s just that I feel he needs a lot of people who share his vision. Hopefully the next prime minister will be able to continue in that light.

I am also grateful for the prime minister of Singapore, Lee Kuan Yew, because he saw the need of the lower income group, and he provided housing, which I grew up in—the HDV flat. You know, it was more hygienic than living in a kampong where you have the light soil system. He made sure that children all went to school where they were educated. I felt he had done a great job for Singapore, and Mahathir had done a great job for Malaysia. I have benefited from both countries.

My first child was born in the year 1984. She was born in the month of June on the 14th. Do I need to mention her name? I should. Her name is Chong Fei Min, and she is now seventeen years old. She is very active in church. She is the musical part of me, the

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extension of me. She plays the piano so wonderfully well, but she don’t feel that she has that talent even though she is really talented on the piano.

Then my second child was born 1985, October 4th. Her name is Chong Su Min. Su has beautiful voice. She sings very well, she plays the piano, and she’s a gymnast. She loves her gymnastics. Su is quite different from Fei, but they are both as lovable. Su is now sixteen years old, and she kind of walked in my footsteps in the sense that she can draw. [laughs] I didn’t know I could draw until recently.

Anyway, my third child came a bit later because, when I had my first two children, I lived with my father-in-law. My first child was born when I was living in Petaling Jaya in a house that we rented from Sung Fu’s sister. I couldn’t cope very well because I was never really taught the domestic skill. I was good in my study, but domestic skill is something that was lacking.

In the year 1984, the month of March—I can’t remember the exact date, but it was during Chinese New Year—my husband had a near fatal car accident. At that time, he was just called as the branch president of the Kuala Lumpur Branch. He was on his way down from Kuala Lumpur to pick me up from Singapore where I spent the Chinese New Year. Because he had work, he had to go back to KL. He was heading back to Singapore to pick me up, and on his way there, he had a car accident. His Honda Accord crashed into an oil tanker. He was fortunate that the tanker was empty, and there was no major explosion; he was miraculously spared death.

I think that accident kind of was a turning point in my life. I remember I used to complain about my husband being away from home too much because he was the branch president. Then when he met with a car accident, I realized how fragile life is, how dependant on God we are, that I had no right to feel that Sung Fu should belong to me, and that he should not serve God with all his heart. So it helped me be more patient when I had to wait for him—that he had to be gone a lot.

Yes, because of his accident, my father-in-law felt that we should move in to live with him so that he could take care of Sung Fu. His second wife, a very nice lady—I would just refer her as my mother-in-law from now on—she took care of Sung Fu. She made Chinese herbal soup and chicken soup that was supposedly able to strengthen the body after a major accident. She took care of him, and she also took care of me at that time when I was expecting because I was expecting with my second child. Fe was only ten months old when the accident happened.

We lived there, and I learned domestic skills from my mother-in-law. I learned how to cook, how to run a home, to shop and stock up food, and to plan menus. How to—lots of things to learn from her. It was a good four and a half years I lived with them. Of course, it was not a bed full of roses. There was some friction, but we were able to handle it. I think the most important thing I learned was that I had to practice what my religion taught me, that I have to be a good example of what the Church teaches, that I would not leave the place giving my mother-in-law the impression that Christians are not good

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people. It was very important. I have high respect for my mother-in-law. She is a wonderful woman. She knows how to be a wife, and a very traditional one. I learned from her a great deal.

I also remember that I have to read the scriptures a lot because, being at home and having the intellect that I have, I think I was constantly yearning for knowledge. So I would set goals for myself every year that I need to accomplish something: reading the scriptures, attending institute, and serving whole heartedly in my callings were those things that kept me intellectually active, other than being physically active, with the rearing of my two daughters.

In the year 1989, I felt we were ready to move out and live on our own. It was like I had been so dependent on my mother-in-law that if I never go out and live, I would never know whether I could make it. [laughs] We left my father-in-law’s house and moved out to Ampang Jaya. My father-in-law’s house is in [Tuas?], Kuala Lumpur, and we lived in Ampang Jaya for eight years. There in the year 1990, October the 19th, I had my next child, who is the third. And he’s my first boy. His name is Woon Han. It was such a joy to have him after five years, and not having a baby, I was all ready for another child, yes. Then two years later, I was expecting my fourth child Chong Woon Schwan, who would be born in November on the 8th.

I have to backtrack a little to the month of May. My father actually passed away in the month of May. I was very sad. I will backtrack a little bit more to the month of February. I made a special trip back to Singapore feeling the urgency to see my parents. It was during that trip, after the Chinese New Year, that I had a heart-to-heart talk with my father. It was during that time that he told me about sending me to church because of my rebellion as a teenager. I was very sad that he kept telling me that he was going to die. I just felt that he was going to live longer than he thought he was going to live, but he kept telling me he was going to die. I was quite upset. I said, “Not you. You’re not going to die. You’re going to live longer.” So I was able to express my love for him. That evening, when I left waving good-bye to him at the kitchen door, it was the last I saw him. [crying]

The kitchen was a special place because, when I was young, my dad worked in the coffee house. He would come home because he had late shift, and he would come home late at night. He would always fix noodles for me in the kitchen. I loved to eat the noodles that he cooked, and sometimes we had leftover rice. He would cook fried rice for me for supper. Chinese supper is we eat dinner and then we had supper. Supper is like 11:00 or 11:30 p.m., but those were the special times that I spent with my dad, eating together. One thing I know is that I knew even though my father passed away, that he was not all gone. I was sad, but I didn’t have a lot of regrets even though I couldn’t see him before he passed away. We have had temple work for him. The temple ordinance was performed for him a year later by my brother Roy Tong.

Anyway, I saw him several times in my dream. He was not very happy in the dream, and he was not talking. He was not smiling until about six months later. Only I could see my

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father smile in the dream, so to me it was a consolation. [crying] It was a grieving period that I went through.

My mom was to live on her own ever since my father passed away. I think she focus on the family because she still had some purpose of living: she had grandchildren. Her grandchildren were going to get married, so there was a lot of hope and joyful events for her to look forward to. We made sure that every happy event that we have in the family is celebrated with her. So that was the year 1992.

In 1995, my fifth child was born on the 16th of June 1995. His name is Ern. We call him Erny. [laughs] He’s a special boy. When he was born, I was busy driving my children around, going to school—one to here, one to there. So he literally grew up in the van. [laughs] I would feed my children in the van on the way to pick up another child. He would have to drink his milk in the van. Sometimes I would bring his porridge to school, so I could feed him when my children are in school. So he grew up in the van. [laughs]

Then in the year 1997, I was expecting my sixth child. The house that we live in, in Ampang Jaya, became kind of crowded. So we moved to our current home in Ukay Heights, which is just the next taman, which means the next garden. Just like we can even walk from our old place to our new place. Yes, so it’s called Ukay Heights. So the name is quite nice. The street name is Jalan [Beverly?]. So that house, number 18, Jalan [Beverly?], was the house that my father-in-law built, like, maybe thirty years ago when my husband was still a young preteen. So my husband lived in there before he left for Australia to study, where he joined the Church. So we have come one big round, you know? For him especially. So finally, he is back to his own home.

By the time we moved to that house in the month of November the 2nd, which is exactly today, my last baby was born. He is Chong Un Ray, and he is my last. I’m quite sure that this will be my final child. I think during my progress in life, from having one child and to six children, I felt that I wanted to intellectually stimulate myself, especially because I have a very good Indonesian maid that I hired when my baby was born. She has been with me ever since Ray was born until now. She is a quite capable woman. She is quite young; she is less than twenty years old. So you can imagine, when she came, she was only fifteen. But we were fooled by her—her age, her looks. [laughs] So I have more time to serve the Church because of her. Yes, because she was there to care for my children when I had to just take off and see somebody.

But I also have—in the back of my mind, I felt that I wanted to continue with my studies. I didn’t have a chance to further my studies, and that bugged me for a long time. So I took up some part time interior design courses, and I decided that I think I wanted to pursue it further. In the year 2000, I made a big jump, and I took it full time. It’s a great challenge, but my children are very supportive. I know I’m doing things—it’s not normal. It’s out of the ordinary, but I’m just going to do it for these two years. Then because it’s a credit transfer kind of system, I can hold onto my junior and senior year until when my children are a little bit older because, right now, I have the opportunity because I have a

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good domestic helper, and she’s not going to be with me forever. She’s going to leave next year, so I’m just taking the opportunity.

I have a few highlights in my life. One of the highlights happened in the year 2000, January the 29th. I went down to Singapore to hear the prophet speak, so President [Gordon B.] Hinckley was there. In 1996, I was able to attend the Hong Kong [China] Temple dedication. I was a little bit upset then, to be honest. I’m speaking very honestly. Because I was not able to see the prophet personally, I was really not so happy.

So the year 1999, there was this news that President Hinckley was going to come to Singapore to speak, to meet the Saints. Brother Lim called me up and said, “Chong Lee, would you like to sing in the stake choir? We would love to have Malaysian participation.” I was more than delighted to join the choir, and on top of that, he gave me the honor, or the privilege, to be the chorister for that occasion. I felt so spoiled that I should deserve a chance like that. [laughs] It was really a chance of a lifetime to be able to sing in a choir for the prophet of God.

It was a unique experience in the sense that I was going through some difficult time in my life prior to this time. I was facing some personal challenges. I was questioning maybe about the meaning of my life, having six children. They call it midlife crisis, but I think it was more than that. It was some kind of problem that came up between me and my husband, but we were able to work on it instead of running away from it. So I felt I really needed to have some kind of spiritual experience to confirm to me that I was doing the right thing.

I remember we were supposed to wear a certain uniform for the choir presentation. I didn’t get the message straight, and I had no uniform. I was really upset. If I didn’t have the uniform, then I wouldn’t be able to sing in the choir. Someone in the choir, Diana Lim, Bishop Lim’s wife, said, “Hey, you know what? I was inspired to bring an extra set of uniform.” She said something whispered to her that she should bring an extra set. She didn’t know for who, but she just brought it. I know it was really for me. Then I also know that it was the Lord’s way of showing me that He had a hand in my meeting the prophet, that I was able to stand up there and sing in the choir and to feel the Spirit so strong.

The song that we sang was the first song that I ever learned from the Church choir. It’s “Oh, how lovely was the morning!” 1 It’s the First Vision. At the closing of that meeting, we sang, “God Be with You Till We Meet Again”2 I was leading the music and President Hinckley was leaving the stage and I think he must have heard my spirit crying. [crying] He turned around and shook my hand and he saw into my eyes and I think he knew that I needed that. He hugged me; I think he knew I needed to be hugged at that moment. It was

1. Editors’ note: Chong is referring to the line from “Joseph Smith’s First Prayer” (Hymns, 1985, no. 26). 2. Editors’ note: “God Be with You Till We Meet Again” (Hymns, no. 152).

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a special experience because, to me, that was Heavenly Father’s arms, and He gave me encouragement to go on.

Because of that visit, I had the reason to come down to Singapore to see my mom for the last time. It was the last time I saw my mom in life. [crying] In the month of March, my mother passed away. When I look back about what a great example my mom has set for me, the sacrifices she made for everyone of her children, for the love that she had for each one of us—she was a very talented woman. She could sew; she could cook; she was a carpenter; she fixed furniture; she recycled things; she was a great example. I view— from my conversation—from her that, at one point in her life, she went to six years of school in China, which is not very common for a girl. She went to six years of school, and she was actually selected to go to nursing school, but somehow there was a twist of fate. She never managed to go. So that was the thing she wasn’t able to do.

After she passed away, that thing came back into me, [emotional] and it kind of reminded me that there were things that I wanted to do that I didn’t do—that I didn’t accomplish in my studies that I really wanted to do when I was young. I wasn’t able going for that goal, but I think if I had pursued my studies at a younger age, I wouldn’t have had six children. So now that I’ve had six children and I’m still going for my study, I think maybe it is better that way that I actually have my six children. I can not explain—I think maybe another ten years with them when I look back. But on the whole, I’m grateful for who I am.

The main thing is the Church has played a very vital role in my life because that is the anchor of what my decisions would be about choosing to be a full-time homemaker. Even the fact that I speak English to my children, it is really Church related because I know that church is conducted in English in Malaysia. So I felt that to get firsthand gospel knowledge, I would use English to teach my children. To make it up, we send them to Chinese school. All my children are bilingual. The fact that we live in Malaysia—we have to in Bahasa, Malaysia. So they go, and they also learn.

My two daughters have very strong testimony, and they go to early-morning seminary. So I think we are not perfect, but we live a life that probably Heavenly Father wants us to live. I am very grateful for all the examples that I’ve seen—the example of the expatriates who live in Kuala Lumpur Branch. From their example of service and from their example of overcoming their set of challenges, we learn from them. We view that this is the way to live, that the Church teaching is a good binding force in the family. For me—I don’t know about other people—for me, I feel that happiness or happy family is the by-product of an eternal family. Because of our constant pursuit of having eternal happiness, the by- product is temporal happiness. Happiness comes because of what we do that is God’s commandment.

In my secular study, I’m being exposed to all types of religion—philosophy to expand my mind. It helps me understand other people. It strengthens my testimony. I know what the world lacks. In the course of study, I also learn how to paint. That, to me, is a form of

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expressing my spirituality. When I do my work, I have to portray beauty, which I think the essence of our religion is also about beautifying this world in many forms: in arts, in living, portray of beauty and positive influences.

I hope that as a Church student in my class that I will be able to influence these eighteen- years-old, nineteen-years-old in a positive manner. So I think there’s more a missionary work opportunity for me now because I have come out of the close circle of Church member friends. I’m able to meet up with a lot of nonmember friends. I have nonmember friends in Singapore, but not here. [laughs] So this my life.

T: Thank you very much.


Notes prepared before the talk:

When I joined the Church in 1979, the prophet at that time was President Spencer W. Kimball. President Kimball was a businessman before he was called to be an Apostle. I had learned that before accepting his call, he wanted to clear himself of any sins he may have committed and somehow reached out publicly to all those he had dealt with him before in the business world if any had felt he had done something wrong or transacted unfairly, he would do something to compensate them for his past sins. I was touched by learning of this history and when I heard the voice of President Kimball speaking on voice tape or video, I was also touched with the special kind of voice he spoke in. I had learned he had suffered cancer in his throat and doctors enabled him to speak with some artificial device implanted on him where he had to speak with more effort or wind to produce a very husky voice that had a humbling effect to listeners.

He who wrote a book entitled The Miracle of Forgiveness of which my talk will use some extracts from his teachings in this “Must Read Book” with further sharing of some of my personal feelings and experiences.

Chapter 18 “Forgive to Be Forgiven”

Matthew 6:14-15
14 For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:
15 But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.

The Lord must have considered this basic. He had long before made the same statement to his people in the Western world through his great prophet, Alma, when it was given in comparable words: 

Mosiah 26:31
30 Yea, and as often as my people repent will I forgive them their trespasses against me.
31 And ye shall also forgive one another your trespasses; for verily I say unto you, he that forgiveth not his neighbor’s trespasses when he says that he repents, the same hath brought himself under condemnation.
32 Now I say unto you, Go; and whosoever will not repent of his sins the same shall not be numbered among my people; and this shall be observed from this time forward.
33 And it came to pass when Alma had heard these words he wrote them down that he might have them, and that he might judge the people of that church according to the commandments of God.

Forgiveness Must Be Sincere
The command to forgive and the condemnation which follows failure to do so could not be stated more plainly than in this modern revelation to the Prophet Joseph Smith:  My disciples, in days of old, sought occasion against one another and forgave not one another in their hearts; and for this evil they were afflicted and sorely chastened.

Wherefore, I say unto you, that ye ought to forgive one another; for he that forgiveth not his brother his trespasses standeth condemned before the Lord; for there remaineth in him the greater sin. I, the Lord, will forgive whom I will forgive, but of you it is required to forgive all men. (D&C 64:8-10.) 

The lesson stands for us today. Many people, when brought to a reconciliation with others, say that they forgive, but they continue to hold malice, continue to suspect the other party, continue to disbelieve the other's sincerity. This is sin, for when reconciliation has been effected and when repentance is claimed, each should forgive and forget, build immediately the fences which have been breached, and restore the former compatibility.

The early disciples evidently expressed words of forgiveness, and on the surface made the required adjustment, but "forgave not one another in their hearts." This was not a forgiveness, but savored of hypocrisy and deceit and subterfuge. As implied in Christ's model prayer, it must be a heart action and a purging of one's mind. Forgiveness means forgetfulness. One woman had "gone through" a reconciliation in a branch and had made the physical motions and verbal statements indicating it, and expressed the mouthy words forgiving. Then with flashing eyes, she remarked, "I will forgive her, but I have a memory like an elephant. I'll never forget."

Do Not Judge

One man came in with his erring wife, and when she had been disciplined by disfellowshipment he taunted her, saying, "Now, how do you like it? You can't take the sacrament. Now don't you wish you had listened to me?" As this despicable husband was judging, it reminded me of the corrupt men who brought the adulteress to the Lord, whose soft answer puts all such accusers to flight: "He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her." (John 87.)

The scriptures are very strict upon the unauthorized judging. The Lord himself made it clear and emphatic:  Judge not, that ye be not judged.  For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again. (Matt. 7:1-2.)

The Lord will judge with the same measurements meted out by us. If we are harsh, we should not expect other than harshness. If we are merciful with those who injure us, he will be merciful with us in our errors. If we are unforgiving, he will leave us weltering in our own sins. While the scriptures are plain in their declaration that man shall have meted out to him the same measure that he gives his fellowmen, the meting out even of warranted judgment is not for the layman, but for proper authorities in Church and state. The Lord will do the judging in the final analysis.

3 Nephi 19:11
29 For verily, verily I say unto you, he that hath the spirit of acontention is not of me, but is of the bdevil, who is the father of contention, and he stirreth up the hearts of men to contend with anger, one with another. 

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December 2019
Post-dated Event:
Well, my stories never end! Only because of my Consciousness that picks up endless streams of information and personal revelations etc. while researching for my book in my CHI Computer-Human Interaction mode with my SHI Spirit-Human Interaction mode as well. Allow me to elaborate:

On 15 September 2018, a special visitor by the name of Hyrum Smith visited Kuala Lumpur to give a talk. During the year of 2018. I was focused on finishing my research and writing my future book on the theme of Human Consciousness. I was at the peak of being busy fulfilling all of my life responsibilities including that of Church callings.
(I was released as the Branch Mission Leader on the first Sunday of the year 2019 to be issued a new calling as the Content Editor of Liahona magazine for Malaysia as recorded here.)

Now there wasn't much publicity or notice that this man named Hyrum Smith was visiting and it felt rather mysterious too as I was wondering was this a talk about the Hyrum Smith members know who was the brother of Joseph Smith where both became martyrs in Cartage Jail?

I was late to attend the meeting that was held in the PJ Church building. Walking in to hear this Hyrum Smith speak  I was impressed with the few stories he was sharing to note that he was certainly a leader in his business entity that he created where I knew from the linear planning diaries he is known for producing, he had merged up with Stephen Covey who was more focused on principle-centered leadership.

I took the following photos after his talk:

Much later in the following year of 2019, after I prepared and delivered my talk entitled above, "Finding Peace by Forgiving others", I discovered this public story of the repentance process that this Hyrum Smith I had met, a descendant of Hyrum Smith who was the brother of Joseph Smith had gone through. Wow, it was indeed humbling to come across this true story to read, reflecting the sincerity and true greatness of this business leader.

Confession and seeking Forgiveness as a principle of Repentance is fundamental in the Gospel of Jesus Christ for all his disciples. The atoning sacrifice of the Savior or why it is possible is not really understood by a majority of followers who will do it due to purely as an act of faith and love of the Savior. My research found answers shared in my journal post here on the Atonement.

It was another moment of my own Consciousness at work to put everything together. There is always a meaning and purpose in life as I am aware of in my own Consciousness.  Finding this public story, that I wasn't aware of earlier, completed my understanding and appreciation of the process of repentance that it really requires great humility for the repentant especially for someone like Hyrum Smith who was a public figure with a merger in business to be public-listed. I am not a public figure as successful as Hyrum Smith though in working hard for my family in the business world, I have made some impressive breakthroughs recorded here.

The above photo reminds me of a time when I had to repent and confess to my presiding Church leader and also to my own family members of whom I am the head of a Chinese family, of my own sins or transgressions. This is difficult for a Chinese to do with our lineage of ancestral hierarchy and pride of being the head of our homes in our culture of 5,000 years that the world acknowledges. Due to my long experience of Western-Eastern Interaction (WEI), my consciousness research helps me understand the phenomena of why I could be a different Chinese!

It was therefore not difficult for me to do as I am a transformed Chinese to know that it isn't about what culture, race or religion one comes from. I know I am a Child of God and since young, I was curious about everything and was unafraid to explore, seek and find the answer to my life's questions and I did find them by my own first experience! In my own research, I discovered that my Consciousness was more akin to being a Phenomenologist.
Due to my confession and acceptance of personal consequences, I could only witness my youngest son's baptism that was conducted by our good family friend from Africa.

I never felt I was better than anyone else and was, in fact, a slow learner since young. I just knew I had to keep working on it and saw how I could transform in many different and significant areas of my life. This occurs as my Consciousness increased in content absorbed from my own personal experiences over time, age never being a constraint!

When my youngest son was much older, ready to receive his Melchizedek Priesthood at Church, it was a privilege for me to be able to ordain him to the office of an Elder.

I knew life had the phenomenon of facing opposition and challenges to enable us to learn how to overcome them. There was even added opposition from my supposedly innocent/good friends where one would use the trust my wealthy friends had in me to borrow money from them to eventually not return the loan. Another would even unscrupulously 'steal' businesses I had built with my own blood, toil, tears, and sweat.

I had to really pray hard to be able to forgive them and I did so by not harboring any hate feelings nor wanting to take revenge on them. I just let them be and focus instead on my own challenges to recover or do the best to carry on.  I could finish a 7 years intensive research on the subject I really wanted to unravel, which is Human Consciousness, to be able today to be ready to publish my first book on the subject through the World Wide Web to update the Group Consciousness of the world on how to achieve OPT Optimal Performance & Thinking in individuals as well as in of organizations.

The result of Peace
My Consciousness has worked wonders for me in my lifetime. It could create a link of a number of people, as I have done below, to the name of Covey with the help of my discipline or habit of keeping all my photos organized and indexed as well as maintaining my personal journals downloaded from my Consciousness.

It brought back memories of my early days in business where I had actually successfully promoted a Covey program in Kuala Lumpur, working with one of their early trainers/consultants.

He is Dee Groberg in 1993

At his home in Sandy Utah

He is related to John H Groberg whom I met in a mission reunion in Utah where I took this photo. Elder Groberg was also involved in speeding up the opening of the Church in East Malaysia as per the article below that I had written for our Liahona news in Malaysia:

Highlighting local missionaries serving in the Kuala Lumpur area today with some history of the early beginnings of the Church in East Malaysia. (Online article.)
We see an increasing number of the local missionaries serving in Kuala Lumpur today, with several from East Malaysia. The work to preach the Gospel really took off in East Malaysia only after the dedication of the land to preach the Gospel, in both East and West Malaysia, that was conducted by Elder Joseph B. Wirthlin, a member of the quorum of 12 Apostles, on 15 Aug 1996. Prior to that, reports the former Mission President Carl Warren & wife Laura (1994-1997), who has shared a written history of the Church in East Malaysia, Elder John H. Groberg of the First Quorum of the Seventy was sent to visit him in December 1994. 
In his own words, wrote President Warren, “Elder Groberg was instantly very much at ease, as he kept observing throughout the several days we were in East Malaysia, how much these native people reminded him of the Polynesian Islanders, that Elder Groberg had spent years living with, in several Church callings. He spoke the Islanders languages, and was truly an expert on the Polynesian migration from Hagar’s voyages into the Pacific, extending all the way to Indonesia and Borneo it seemed. 
With Elder Groberg’s very positive report back to Salt Lake, and his miraculous ‘vision’ that took place when the five of us had returned to Kuching from the ‘bush’, and while sitting in our Hilton Hotel room, trying to recap and summarize our findings, Elder Groberg had what I would term, a “vision”, that caused him to lean back in his chair, close his eyes, and it was so startling to the other four of us, that complete silence filled the room. 
The net of his inspirational few moments, was that the window in time, that the Lord had just opened for us in East Malaysia, was going to close very soon, and we were under direct instruction to get to work in opening up the six proposed branches, three in the West in Kuching, Sibu and Miri, and three in the East at Kota Kinabalu, Sandakan, and Tawau as soon as possible.” The West and East referred to the island of Borneo where the two states of East Malaysia are located geographically. 

Elder John H. Groberg is seen on the back far right of the photo with President Carl Warren siting on the front right with his wife Laura on the far left.
Standing on the far left is Elder Brandon Pendell who baptized a young Iban woman seen in the middle named Dinah Tampong. She was the first East Malaysian to be called to serve a mission and served productively in Singapore and West Malaysia. She is today Dinah Pendell, sealed to her husband Brandon with a wonderful family of three children living in the Utah.

End of Article.

Writing this journal post has been a humbling experience for me to realize how amazing Human Consciousness is which I know is a gift of our Heavenly Father to us. It has helped me navigate my way to live the Gospel of Jesus Christ as best as I can, to face every challenge thrown to me and last but not least, to still be able to be positive or spiritual in finding true meaning and purpose of life!

Post-dated development:
28 Feb 2021



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